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Day 6… Boy oh Boy… It was HARD. So, what the hell do those people mean when they say it gets “easier” after the 4th day and you don’t have as many cravings for food?! Those people need their freaking heads examined, because it’s NOT TRUE, in my case anyways.
Starting from Day 5 I’ve been finding it very hard to get even my minimum daily lemonade quota down. I hate the taste now more than ever. The lemony, spicy mixture is a dread for me. I gulp it down fast so that it’s hits those ‘rumblings in my tummy’. You know, honestly those rumblings in my tummy (yes of hunger) have now become like an itch. It’s a feeling I feel, and it just doesn’t feel the same as before. You know how you feel hungry and the grumblings in your tummy, and you just need food to make it go away to feel better? Well… That’s changed for me now. Those feelings in my belly come and go and it’s like just dealing with a common body function like peeing. That’s a bad example… It’s hard to explain. I feel when the hunger rumblings come, but they feel empty. Or hollow, like my body knows it’s not going to get food and that food wouldn’t even help it. So I just go along, feeling that feeling and pretty soon it goes away. It doesn’t even feel real anymore.
Ok, this journey is sounding WAY psychological even to me, and it really is. It’s been such a huge thing for me to try to do this detox and say goodbye to anything of substance in my mouth, and stomach for a full 10 days. I have such a strong connection to food to give me comfort, peace and just to live.
I was walking the dogs and I smelled the smell of burning firewood and it smelled like something I could eat. That’s how insane this has become for me.
I ‘cheated’ today and drank some tea that has ground cinnamon, cloves, orange peel and other natural stuff in it (it has nothing else besides herbs and spices). It was heaven… The detox says the only cheating you’re allowed to do is drink Green Tea. F'THAT! I have green tea in my cupboard and I tried it and it tasted like complete ass. I made that other tea, and it helped me through some rough spots so it was worth it to drink the tea, opposed to losing it completely and going on a terrible rampage that might include eating everything in my fridge and stealing food from an infant… (first, I would only steal food from children ages 5+. Now, I’ve resolved myself to the possibility of infants eating baby food)
I was also in the mall and walked through the food court. Let’s just say, I don’t give a flying ‘f’ what people thought of me holding my nose as I walked through there.
Day 6, done.
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