|
Hello, everyone!
Today I will introduce myself as a fat vegan because this is something about me that I'm ready to give up. I've been vegan for about 6 years now. I eat a little bit of processed foods, but honestly, not much! My husband and I prepare really wholesome and clean foods. Unfortunately, most of my weight is from alcohol! I had a really bad alcohol problem and I don't anymore but the weight has stubbornly stayed on my hips! I don't mean to indicate that I don't overeat, because I know that I do! I overeat on the good stuff! And I love to eat! But I can see and feel how it's changed me for the worst and because of that, I know that I need to change my basic eating patterns!
I've completed one full MC in January and lost a whole pants size. I've maintained that weight loss and in fact tried to cleanse again in March. But my March attempt at the MC was really disappointing! I'm at a weight where I feel like I should be losing a relatively good amount every day from this cleanse and yet last time, after 7 days I hardly lost 3 pounds! I was devastated and quit. Can anyone else relate to that? I frequently find myself starting and stopping cleanses. Hopefully by writing this blog, I will feel accountable for every day!
Today is day 2 for me!! The first few days are usually the hardest. And I'm a student who drives an hour to college, so it was a pretty big deal to get through yesterday and today (which is my Friday, woot woot!). The day before I started this cleanse, I was in a really ungrateful and rude mood! I felt as if my change in mood, spirituality and behavior was all because of how big, gross and bad I felt! Being this big, and having been a healthy, smaller size before, I feel as if my size puts limits on not only my activities but my personality. What I miss the most about being at a healthy weight is that I could take part in every day life without worrying about how my jeans fit on my muffin top or what position my head is in so that I don't have a double chin and have to cover it up with my hair! Those little worries have become my everyday awareness and I simply don't like this fat! I get that we're at an age now where we are encouraging each other with body positivity, but fat is unhealthy and it's debilitating! When I'm not cleansing, I try to comfort myself by thinking, "Hey, at least this fat is from plant ingredients and not animal ingredients!" But if I'm against animal cruelty, I should also be against this animal (points to self) being fat, unhealthy, and abused by myself! If I can go through extreme measures to stand up for other animals, I can at least stay on a cleanse to gift myself a better life, right? Right!
Day 1 went smoothly except for the evening when I had one of the worst headaches I've ever had in my life! I've cleansed plenty of times and have put up with lots of detox symptoms but I was ready to quit because of that headache! I was about to run in the kitchen and grab some food when I thought, "Why I don't I just take an Excedrin instead?" I know that medicine isn't allowed, and certainly not caffeine, but like I said, I was ready to quit! I've never ever cheated on a cleanse before so this was my first official cheat! So, I took a couple of Excedrin and then a warm shower. By no time, my headache had vanished and I felt AMAZING! I was kind of hyper, chipper, and talkative. I had clearly taken one-too-many! But do I feel guilty about it? No way! I'm on the cleanse today! And taking that turned my day around completely! Instead of usually going to bed by 8pm while on day 1 of the cleanse, I stayed up til 11:30 (That is way late for me! On a usual day, I go to bed around 10). I think that I'll stay open minded about taking one again if I'm so uncomfortable that I want to quit.
Day two, and I feel good so far. I almost talked myself into skipping my second class for the day because I felt so fatigued in the class before. But I chugged what I could of my drink and felt better afterwards! Also, going to the bathroom in public places can be a little uncomfortable! "Smooth Move" my butt! More like "Explosive Move!" I don't like getting up in the middle of class to go to the bathroom, but it is necessary and hey, bathrooms have its purpose and I was most certainly utilizing its purpose today!
When I came home, I reluctantly decided to weigh myself. I can get really discouraged by the scale because a lot of times I feel lighter than I really am! I'll find myself thinking, oh, I gotta be like 175lbs or something, that's good! And then I'll weigh myself at 185 and then want to DIE!! So, I weighed myself at 180 today! And I nearly jumped for joy! That's a good starting weight and it's less than I was on day 7 of the MC in March (there must have been something in the air, or something, because I was following it to the T!).
Anyway, I feel really inspired, now that I know that I'm at an acceptable weight for myself. I'd really like to lose another pants size by the end of this! Fingers crossed! I have a few events that are coming up during this cleanse. My husband is playing an outdoor gig on Sunday that I will attend. I'll simply have to come prepared to go to the porta potty! And next Wednesday, I have to give a presentation in front of class, so I'd like to feel more comfortable standing up there speaking!
So, here I am! I'm looking forward to reading about everyone else's journeys and I look forward to making new MC friends!
Happy cleansing!
-R
_________________
[url=http://www.TickerFactory.com/weight-loss/w9AfY5z/]
[/url]
|
Login
Register
FAQ
Search
