Day 27:
SW: 174.2
CW: 153.2
Hellllloooo!!!!! Sorry it's been a couple of days. I don't know if I've ever mentioned my energy "wall." I still have some permanent issues with fatigue from my radiation treatments (I had almost 4 times the normal amount) and when I hit my wall in the evening it's instant. So sometimes I intend to post after this or that and then I crash before I get to it. Anyway, it's been a pretty good few days. I'm home now, and should be able to get back to my routine. That's the other thing that affects me pretty significantly. I actually test borderline on the OCD scale so to say that I'm a habitual/routine person is an understatement. That's what made it tough when I was traveling. Then yesterday I had a long baby shower and even little things like that throw me off. In hindsight, I have no idea how I stayed on this while traveling, but it had to be sheer will. Yesterday, the baby shower was catered by a great place and the food looked and smelled really amazing, but I toughed it out.
I know it's probably not accurate, but I actually feel like my body may be nearing the end of the toxins. Part of it is that I'm not seeing the same things in my eliminations. They seem "cleaner" for lack of a better way of saying it. The other factor is just a feeling. I'm still going 60 days or until my tongue turns pink, whichever is first. It's just interesting to feel the difference over the course of the cleanse.
May, I'm so glad you shared your story! I might have missed it in earlier posts, but I had no idea that you are already so far down your weight loss journey. I sure hope you feel immensely proud, what an incredible accomplishment! I know exactly what you mean about the sugar addiction. I have done tons of research over the years and am also convinced that sugar is a literal poison. I've done low-carb off and on throughout the years and without exception, ALWAYS feel better when I do. I advise other people not to research or think about "real" food while on the cleanse, but when I'm feeling especially strong, I've been researching whole/real food eating so that when I come off the cleanse I can stay on a healthy track. Your list of cheat foods sounds so risky. I so agree that it begs the question, what are we doing this for if we're just go back to eating poison? What do you think of starting a new post as we transition off the cleanse, to help us continue on the right path after the cleanse? I don't see any active journals about what to do correctly after the cleanse. I found a blog that offers monthly meal plans for eating real food on a budget. It's based on feeding a family of 4 for $330/month. I live alone, so the budget part isn't as much a factor, but I've been going back through the last year of her menu plans and I can totally see for me how it might be a great way to transition into eating better all the way around. Being as habitual as I am, I NEVER experiment with new foods or cooking. I would love to do that. As I look through the recipes, in my head, I'm thinking of ways to make them lower carb.
I'm so sorry you had such a rough day.
Never apologize about a rant. We're here to support each other! I'm sending you virtual hugs! I think the fact that you weren't eliminating might be a big part of the cause of that. Something I read before the cleanse talked about how releasing but not eliminating the toxins can make you feel really bad. I hope they release really soon. It seems like you're in the right frame of mind about not expecting the scale to move during TOM. So any that it does will be a win. I don't lose every day, but like you, can totally see and feel the changes in my body.
Okay, I'm off to do some adulting (paying bills - blech!) and then have a lazy day of cheesy Hallmark Channel movies. Have a great Sunday!