Wow, so totally fell off the map it's been AGES!
Good day folks!
Ok so here's the 101. August (actually shortly after that last post) I broke up with the boyfriend of 8 years. He's been referred to MANY times in the previous posts. Anywho - yep, my choice, various reasons but that's what happened. SO I COMPLETELY fell off the face of the earth - including the internet hehe. Until late November I had burned up savings and been sleeping on couches and of course binge drank and ate crap food. All temporary, now I'm back on my feet, in a roomate situation, have a savings, putting money towards my own place come May/June-ish. But during that whole fall-out process I felt like I aged a few decades, internally and externally. Work, stress, nearly ZERO sleep (though they were comfortable couches, the brain was going a zillion miles an hour
). Hmm.. what else oh yeah - OUT OF DEBT. I had been paying for 3 years to get out of debt and that happened this Jan
SOOOooo - long story short, now I'm hooked up with a new boy-toy for nearly six months. NO I wasn't looking for it, had planned to be single for a year or two, ef men, go liberation woo! But I find it is true what they say.. when you least expect it and when you MOST fight it... something happens! Soo yeah..time to fix the body in terms of having ate like CRAP for many months, my sleep is so-so, smoking way more often than I used to, carb addicted..lol. Annd yeah of course some weight came back on
So hey - why not do the MC again?
I had been on day 8 late January when the bf surprised me with a 'WE'RE GOING OUT OF TOWN THIS WEEKEND' excursion. Not wanting to be a party pooper (we went with another couple) + absolutely LOVING the restaurant in another city (which we do not have here) I decided after much deliberation to break that cleanse. Took a week to get everything back in pooping order (literally!).
But it was my own decision.
Though the new man doesn't know much at all about the cleanse, he is supportive. I've been putting off this march cleanse because there was some type of family get together dinner but didn't happen so he said ah w/e just go ahead and start it.
On top of that we made personal goals a few months back - mine were to have x amount in savings and to be at a certain weight before EOM March, so I'll get as close to it as possible.. Though the fiscal goal is looking pretty plausible!!
In the current roommate situation I am in (left everything to the ex, just walked away so yeah..started with nothing, no bed, so been picking self up slowly), our complex has a work out room, a pool, etc so I'm set there.
POST CLEANSE
I am hoping by (AAAGAIN) end of this cleanse to have curbed smoking down if not completely. Post-the-summer-events combined with roomates who smoke inside like chimneys I've noticed my own smoking amount go through the ROOF.
Flushed the system out of all the abuse i gave it over the summer/fall months..yeesh that was brutal.
Lost carb addiction
Re-ground self a lot more spiritually and mentally.
Hit 135 pds
Tonight is the last meal - I will be writing a few reflective items and essays over time. IE: started new job, now I know why I had turned to the ol' liquor bottle last year (was very unhappy with prvious relationship and my own self, etc which is a non-issue now yay!) All that kind of stuff.
So cheers!!! Hope all is well with everyone.
XOX