Thank you Benni. I appreciate the support. It is easy to feel very isolated while doing this. I'm so glad I found this community.
Day Three
Today, so far has been a mixed bag of goodies. I woke up feeling great - tired from not sleeping well, but my headache was totally gone. I was so optimistic and chipper. After doing my SWF, which worked great, I got online and started this journal. After that, I wrote a long email to my dad about a personal issue, and found myself crying like a baby all the way through it. Then, I felt nauseous. I basically went through every human emotion in the span of two hours. So, I had some peppermint tea.
THe tea helped with the nausea, so I decided to attempt my walk. As I was walking to the river route, my body was "suggesting" that I turn around and go home and rest. Ignoring it, I pressed on, deciding that I would walk only (I usually add short jogging spurts ). I got on the path. It was freezing. My body felt totally blah. My underwear were bugging me. ( Don't ask. ) I had to pee. After 7 minutes of walking, I turned around and headed for home.
So, I've decided to listen to my body today. I am going to very quickly do the bare minimum of housework and getting ready for work tomorrow, and then, I might take myself out to the hairdresser for a cut and blowdry. Although I am not sure because I fear two things: I might have to pee 5 times while I'm there, and I might cry if she cuts my hair too short.
I am an all-or-nothing girl when it comes to diets - a bit of a perfectionist. I plan on doing something perfectly, and if I slip up, I throw in the towel and plan another start day. Although this is not a diet, I planned to walk every day of the cleanse. Not completing the walk can be dangerous for me in terms of my old habits. Yet, I know my body is using energy to heal and I should respect this process.
I will take comfort in a nice massage over the shampoo sink, and lots of rest while watching old sitcoms. I'm done thinking today. May update the rest of this day later....
10:00 pm: Did go get my hair done. I sat through a marathon of "Basketball Wives" - horrible but exactly what I was craving. I don't understand that I was so tired all day, but now that it's bedtime, I can't seem to settle. In Thailand, insomnia was one of the symptoms I dealt with, and it is apparently normal. Tomorrow, though, is a long day for me at work, and I'll be away from home until 7 pm. I thought I had enough lemons but I'm not getting enough juice out of them. ( searched in vain for a juicer here in Seoul - couldn't find one. ) As a result, I don't think I'll have quite enough lemon juice for my all-day drink tomorrow. There's just no chance to get more until I'm on the way home tomorrow evening. I hope that having less lemon juice in the drink doesn't throw me off. I've been doing really well - no cravings, no emotional need to eat, and dealing with my sensations instead of eating them away or taking a pill to cover them up. I'm worried about tomorrow. It will be my first day away from home while on the cleanse, and my drink won't be quite up to snuff.
I'm also starting to get paranoid that I have bad breath. I know it is a normal detox symtom, and is a good thing in terms of progress - but not sure how I am going to handle a whole day teaching when I'll be feeling like I have to keep my distance from people. My mouth tastes really funky, and I won't be able to eat mints or gum. Guess I"ll be brushing my teeth in between classes. Maybe peppermint tea will help? Peppermint tea is a godsend on this cleanse - it tastes great, soothes the stomach, freshens the breath and refreshes the body.
If I make it without giving up tomorrow, I will make it all the way. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
It might just be that cup of peppermint tea that saves me.