When we fast we need to cultivate choices that are not our habitual response. It comes down to getting to know your emotional energy. When you are having a craving or you are really tired and you just don't feel like you can fast anymore and you are fed up, we need to listen to that one part of ourselves that holds our innate intelligence, that knows why we are fasting. The other voice is a highly charged emotional voice that screams, "Feed Me!". So what do we do about that? We could say that voice in us is bad and we need to get rid of it, but that never works. When we fast it is best to neither reject or indulge in our own emotional energy, and instead we get to know it. We say hello to our demons. Glad you came today. From time to time we should converse. This transmutes the the confusion of our emotions into wisdom. In simple terms we become one with our own energy instead of splitting off.
To stay on your fast when your head is yelling for you to stop, is like coming to a crossroads. You ask, what will soothe me in this minute? The habitual responce is to that what will soothe me is to get what I want. I want a cheeseburger!! I want my needs met. But we have all seen what this choice leads to. We fast like an angel, and crash the fast like a devil. We need to cultivate that other choice!
As you are acting, you could ask yourself, have I ever acted this way before? If the answer is yes it means you are acting unconsciously. You bite the hook and you get swept away.
When we get caught by our minds, we don't even see what we are doing. We end up putting kerosene on the fire, by our knee jerk reactions and we don't even realize what we are doing. When facing a difficult situation like staying on your fast when you are having a weak moment, the point is to stay with the underlying uneasiness and lean into it. Connect with the natural openness of your mind. There is just you there and your battle with your inner principals that sooner or later you start to feel deep in your bones. No one is forcing you to stay on your fast. Ultimately we know what the right decision is. The part of us that needs to be healed when we cleanse is really pretty childish.
_________________ In a moment of consciousness, change can occur.
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