Day 8:
BM: - Yep a few - gooo tea!
CW:148 - No change... SWF related maybe?
SW: 155.5
Marsha;
Well, regarding the SWF this confirms it; I am retaining more water or it doens't appear to be passing through as you say... I may elect to skip the SWF for longer periods... The tea does more than enough I find, keeps me running to the throne room until at least mid day, and that's from having it the previous night.
Ok.. as for yesterday's events:
Worked out - yep, plenty of sweat, just cardio since that works up the sweat fast for me, and made it longer than I normally do, was quite impressed with the amount of energy!
Workhorse day - Suddenly I had the ambition to wash every damn peice of clothing we have lol.. Mind you over half of it hasn't been unpacked since we bought this condo.
I made a nice lunch and dinner for the man, except while cutting some romaine up the BLADE SLIPPED!
CUT MESELF!
Yep, gobs and gobs of blood.. I read somewhere on the forum someone had cayenne near by and doused it with powder. Tried that, didn't seem to help since the blood would soak right through it. But after the bleeding stopped (took 10 minutes or so since it was pretty damn deep) it looked super shiney and almost glued back together (imagine how crazy glue looks on your skin, shiney!)... I have to say that was the QUICKEST I have ever seen my body recover from a knife cut! WOWIE!
Anyway
Friends suddenly dropped by, they had been to a party earlier today (drinking since 3, lots of special occasions today for them) with LOADS of liquor.. I told this girlfriend of mine that i was going to pass and she knew I was dong the fast... let me tell you - the peer pressure - she even cleaned an extra glass for me and poured the wine... Asked what kind of mix I wanted and everything if I wanted some of the ol' cap'n...
Then her man too was telling me to drink the wine... hah ... It wasn't until she realized 'oh wait.. are you still on that cleanse?' 'YEAH DAMNIT' 'OHHhhhhhhh'... she thought I was off it
Now here's the shameful part...
~~~~Self Beat Up Session~~~~
I had a sip.. maybe 1/2 of a teaspoon.. yep..a half sip of wine. I FEEL TERRIBLE for that. Needless to say I promptly washed it down with a litre of water but still... The act of doing so has me really down.
I figure it being not even a teaspoon that went down the throat, that it wasn't anything near enough to call off the cleanse. Ugh. Still....Shitty feeling and I will not be having a teeny sip of anything again thats for sure. Althogh it wasn't much compared to the at least 20 cups of fluid I've had the whole day, it feels as if I let myself down..and I have but I am stronger for it now...It was shitty wine anyway
~~~~End Session~~~~
Despite that slight sip up (hah slip up..sip up... get it?..yeah that was terrible), the man did tell our friends he has never ever ever seen this much resolve in me in the past 7 years that we have been together... alcohol is my greatest weakness (next to sashimi!). He asked me 'is it worth it? it's been 7 days.. do you really want to drink that whole glass of wine?' 'well no....but...no..it's just I've made it this far and thats the only thing stopping me, results and the amount of time spent on it already'...
I believe that everyone most likely has their weakness during their first cleanse... Some comfort food, some beverage, etc... So keep my story in mind if you feel tempted ^_^... you WILL feel terrible for slipping up
BUT I did manage to make a kick ass poutine and other foods for them and still never nibble... 'It's really amazing, you should try it when you're off your cleanse' lol... Perhaps I will, but I will likely be transitioning to raw foodist type stuff... It will be interesting to see what my first 'heavy/normally ingested food' after effects will be like lol... BUT That day will not be for a while yet.
Elbow-skin-face has not in fact been alleviated yet, I am afraid of putting any chemicles on it (face wash, etc)...So we'll just let that be. It's not as red, so it may be planning to hitch on hike off of my face..but we'll see...
Aparently all the food I create without tasting, just by smelling, tastes absolutely phenominal compared to other things i've tried to prep before the cleanse. Funny..funny how that works out hey?
I think I will skip going to the inlaws today for 'dinner'... The mother in law did not approve of the concept of not 'eating'.. 'you have to eat SOMETHING' (shakes her head) 'Not even grapes??!?!' (alarmed face)... So i'll just skip that for today lol. I leant my book out and really dont feel like trying to remember what vitamins or minerals are contained in the maple and lemons and regergiting that info to people lol... I have a goldfish memory anyway!
My girlfriend on her honeymoon last night called me.. Trashed out of her tree, but it's your honeymoon - you're allowed. She really wants to do up the cleanse when she's back - she has plenty of resolve, and equal weakness depending on the subject matter. But she is as determined as me in certain areas - I believe she can channel that energy into a cleanse if she truly feels like it. Anyway, she did ask when I would be done the cleanse, told her I wasn't sure at all, as she as well wants to cook me a dinner and provide alcohols
... A part of me is thinking 'NOooo moderation, maybe, but you know it wont happen if you nab the wine or alcymahol!' ... and the other part of me is thinking badass like 'DO IT DO IT DO IT'.. Funny, we'll see how I solve this dilema
What I DO know is that I have lost taste for certain types of alcohol. I am not joking when I say I would drink pretty well anything, and have a drink fairly more often than most. BUT I have noticed by there MERE though of some of my usual beverages - if I listen to my body I feel the following for these beverages:
Coolers: Immediate no no, I remember how packed with sugar they normally are..and they filled me up and I did not receive any feeling of tipsiness no matter how many I had..maaaybe after 3...by that time you feel EXTREMELY gross...and the sugar.. uck!
Beer: used to be a beer fan, but not soo much not too long ago... agian makes you feel full..lost the taste of it somewhere - but the mere thought of it - my body screams no...
Rum and coke - My old FAV beverage - usually a double if I'm out with friends ( as you can imagine I head out pretty often, different circles of friends, etc)... Even now, thinking of it, my body just feels like it's saying no... I am starting to lose the taste of it for whatever reason, but thats a good thing!
Wine: Never a big fan of it.
Pre-mixed smirnoff cosmo's or Mojito's - WAY too sugar-ee.. I couldn't just DO THAT to my body after having done this cleanse and reading up on what sugar-ee beverages do to the body..nevermind the stress on the liver.. HOW DO I EVEN HAVE ONE STILL!
I WELCOME the losing of taste of most alcohols...WELCOME IT
Sake and Vodka will be tough to kick but w/e, I'll figure that out
Really, try asking your body 'do I want that rum and coke' (or w/e it is that is your weakness) and you will literally FEEL whether your body wants it or not... dissassociate your brain's attachment ot the feeling and memories of eating or drinking it, and you will notice your body might tell you a thing or two of what it likes or dislikes health wise
OR maybe I'm just on perverbial crack... But I found it a neat practice
The rest of the day will be dedicated to laundry...and drinking a tonne of water and LA =)...think I might pop a tiny bit of tea in me this morning... that SWF really seems to be not passing through... I was thirstier yesterday come to think of it... we'll see how I weigh in tomorrow!
Love and peace guys!
Raffinator